i did a very bad thing

this might be a bit of a trigger for you fellow suicidal types so be warned. don't read on if u dont think u can handle it.


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a few weeks ago i tired 2 kill myself. i wont say how cuz i dont wanna give ppl any ideas, but i did. my bro found me n took me to hospital. i was there for a few days, not rly sure how many cuz i was so out of it. now my bro and my best friend wont talk 2 me. they are sooo mad n i can totally understand why. but i rly need some1 to talk too. i feel like doin it again. i no i shouldnt but i cant help thinkin about it. i hate my life n i dont want 2 deal with it anymore. my mum hates me n is always callin me up when shes drunk n callin me a slut n tellin me she hates me. im so sick of hating myself. ana seems 2 be my only freind rite now n she hates me too. im not even good enouhg for my eatin disorder!!!

this sucks. i need a drink but my bro wont keep any alchohol in the house anymore. fuck.

lol

my bro was sleepin on the lounge and he just fell off. it was funny but he hearly hit the coffee table so that woulda been bad.

neways i got the net back on at my house so i can finally update this thing! my bro is still totaly worried bout me but i told him im not gunna stop even if he tells my mum. he gets it now and is tryin 2 be supportive and stuff, not of the ana bit but he is lookin after me and stuff so its nice. i luv him soooo much! best brother ever! lol

im so annoyd cause i havent lost anythin for ages! im still a big fat 51kg. its yuicky and i hate it. i mite need to start going running more or for longer or somethin. i would eat less but i am already havin under 250 cals a day and if i eat less my bro will totaly freak out so no. i will just run more! good idea.

cant think of nething else 2 say. haha im so interestin! xx

stupid brothers

my older brother knows that im ana and he wants me 2 stop. he has seen me at my lowest weihgt and hes scared that im gonna go back there and nerly die again. i dont want 2 hurt him but i dont want 2 stop either! i luv my bro soooo much and i hate makin him worry but he doesnt get that this is who i am and i dont want 2 change! he thinks that saying hell tell my mum is gona make me stop. that bitch wont care anyways. she is the 1 that made me ana by always tellin me im useless and fat and she hates me. she can go get fuckt for all i care. but i dnt wanna hurt my bro. this sucks!

hi there!

hey everyone! im immi, i'm 20 and im ana. my bff liviana has a blog and im a total sheep so i thought i shuld have one too!!

im not rly sure how to start so ill post my stats

H: 158cm
CW: 53.3kg
HW: 70
LW: 40
GW: 45

ive been ana for about 5 yrs now. i dont want any1 else to have it but i no a lot of girls do so im here to support them. if u wanna talk 2 me leave me a comment or send me an email, which ill add 2 my profile in a sec.

much luv, immi xox