i did a very bad thing

this might be a bit of a trigger for you fellow suicidal types so be warned. don't read on if u dont think u can handle it.


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a few weeks ago i tired 2 kill myself. i wont say how cuz i dont wanna give ppl any ideas, but i did. my bro found me n took me to hospital. i was there for a few days, not rly sure how many cuz i was so out of it. now my bro and my best friend wont talk 2 me. they are sooo mad n i can totally understand why. but i rly need some1 to talk too. i feel like doin it again. i no i shouldnt but i cant help thinkin about it. i hate my life n i dont want 2 deal with it anymore. my mum hates me n is always callin me up when shes drunk n callin me a slut n tellin me she hates me. im so sick of hating myself. ana seems 2 be my only freind rite now n she hates me too. im not even good enouhg for my eatin disorder!!!

this sucks. i need a drink but my bro wont keep any alchohol in the house anymore. fuck.